biquad antena...

I just found out how to improve my wifi connection in my room! It is using a biquad dish antena. There are two main problems tho. One is fixing up the antena. I guess i could just fix it in the room. But the second is the bigger problem. My wifi adapter does not have an external input antenna. T.T should have bought the card slotted one for my laptop. Well... next time then.

!!! SPAM !!!

Argghhh!!! I feel soooo fustrraaaaateedddd!!!! Grrraaawwww!!!

First day of Campus REVO

Today is the first day of campus revo. Julie lead the prayer meeting and she was rather 'kaku' haha~ i guess we have never really follow a particular format so following a format was rather a new thing and since this is the first day it's is really something.

Below is from the DREAM Malaysia website which i am not mistaken is where Revolution movement started and as a result our prayer meeting here in UMS started.

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If we would follow the sequence suggested by the Prophet Joel in Chapters 2 and 3, it would seem to me broadly that, DREAM Malaysia (for the Church) would include the picture of a

Christian (youth) revival	Where thousands will turn & return to God with radical faith to always live His principles, serve His purposes and fulfill His plans in and through their lives [PRAYER]
Church restoration	Where spiritual accuracy, authority, activeness ... and admiration will be restored to the Church like in the days of the Book of Acts [PARTNERSHIP]
Community transformation	Where lives are guided by principles and lived with purpose, and communities are blessed as righteousness prevails over self- centredness, with multitudes responding to the love of Jesus and to the power of His Holy Spirit, bringing about real and lasting change for the good of all [POWER]
Commission explosion	Where tens of thousands of young people will answer the call for missions, making Malaysia a mighty force that will effectively help to bring completion to the Great Commission [PEOPLE GROUPS]

http://www.dream.net.my/church/main.php
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Today is the start of the new day. I do hope that everyday when we meet it will be a start of something new. God will sustain His presence in UMS.

A prayer to Dad

Dear Dad,

It's really has been sometime hasn't it, just sitting down and chatting with You via the internet. I have been really caught up with the many things in life of love and relationship and the world of entertainment. Sigh... Mostly too caught up with myself.

I pray that You won't be too frustrated that I neglected the moments precious too You for my wants. But You are still faithful and true, and tho i am running amok doing my own things You are still there to answer my prayers and answering them in ways I honestly cannot see.

Remember the dream (or is it vision?) that You gave me the last time? The one that we were praying an a group and a fire started, and small flames started to spread through the whole campus until it was engulfed in flames. I know that it is not arson or a rebellion but something of greater value than that. I believe it is a growing passion to see Your glory in this place, and an awakening of Christians to unite under Your name to spread the good news throughout the campus.

Today i also meet with Eunice that You sent to talk with us. This week has been a rather lazy week and if not because of Your persistence I would have missed my chance. Let Lord this be a start of a new day, a dawn for a great awakening for revival in this place. Will i get to spectate it? It doesn't really matter. Let Your will be done.

I pray that You could help me and Julie out with this. Help us with our schedules and our assignments. I also need a slapping for my laziness. I desire for discipline and a leading in what You want me to do. Help me out in things that hinders me from serving You to my fullest potential for i don't want to leave a place without giving a great impact in my campus. Help me focus in the small things, in the way i walk. talk and do things. Help me also in my prayer life, i want to get to know You better and draw close to You. Help me also understand Your Bible, and show me the directions You want me to go through Your Word. Lead me in the path of righteousness for Your name sake, and to acknowledge all my ways to You, so that You could lead my path of my life. Make me a history maker and a Malaysia changer for You. All the glory and honor, let it be redirected back to You. In Jesus name I pray, AMEN.

Am I called to be a Worship Leader?

What the craziest thing that is crossing my mind right now? I want to join the 'One in a Million' contest! Crazy!! But still a long way to go huh...

Well... U Phillip recently approach me mentioning that he wants to train me to become a worship leader (and i also he secretly prays that he could retain me... hehe~ I have nothing against him). Its a really great opportunity for me, since i have secretly wish that one day i could perform in front of a crowd, which only i have done once with my classmates. An opportunity to grow in dreams as well in my spiritual walk of faith and trust in God. Why? Worship leading really must have faith because you have to lead people to God and trust that God will bring people to greater heights. A WL must be sensitive and trust what God tells him to do. It is rather scary for me really, but i can't let this great opportunity pass me by. Dive into the opportunity.

Well, last tuesday was told to WL the prayer meeting. It is not as simple as it seems. You have to chose 5 main songs and another 5 back-up songs and at the end of the day you would only sing one song from your list and another from else where chosen by the leader. And as a total rookie, sometimes you don't know where the spirit is leading. That how it was for my first prayer meeting. But it really made me trust God is really in control, and God speaks to people who come together to pray.

I'm rambling already. But the bottom line is that I really enjoyed just singing and supporting the leaders during the worship sessions. Somehow I can really let lose when i'm singing behind the mike, but under one condition tho: I don't look anyone in the eye. Haha! But i'm encourage none the less from the feedback from friends.

Is this a start of a revolution?

Yesterday there was a meeting for Ablazers about wanting to start a campus revo in UMS. However, i did not attend, neither did Fiona, Christopher or Julie (LBC) was there. I find that rather interesting really that God planned in such a way to make it not so much a Ablaze thing.

Today (Friday, 25th October) we met Eunice Pui, who is now in IMU in her 3rd year in Medicine, A Skyliner at heart too i believe. And all the above today was present, however Fiona and Chris had to leave early to buy dinner for later CG.

Honestly, i don't really feel all that excited about having campus revo in UMS. Just a slight tickle. But God reminds me about what my father said, "God is moving by nations, not to say that God does not work in individuals, but He is focusing more on changing nations." And what i see from the Revolution movement/mobilization, this is really God's work, and if i really don't want to miss the train, I better don't miss it this round of what God is really doing in Malaysia.

This is what UMS would need. A spark, a flicker, more oil and a flame. UMS does not need spores, which grows into mushrooms and dies, but seeds which grows to trees and gives shade and fruits.

But i still don't feel a drive. But i realize that i don't lack motivation, but am just plain lazy and lack of focus. At the same time, if i can't drive myself (by God's strength and grace) how else can i lead a people for a drive.

i like Carrie Underwoods song:Jesus take the wheel, take it from my hand... I need a revolution and i need to shine. Is it to late to change? With a God of second chances, i don't think He has given up on me since He had divinely lead me into this campus revo. Thinking back this is what i have prayed for and a flicker of hope still remains in me and plenty of potential in what UMS has.

I need a personal revolution. Really! And I am the revolution as well. I want to.

Prayer: God i pray that You would do something about this.

CG in Hospital Papar

Today cg is was a really an interesting one. We had our cg in the hospital in the maternity ward section in the room of the 'doctor-on-call'.

Am now lying now to my gf now bf that cheng eng got pregnant and she wanted to deliver her baby in papar. She just got married last week and got pregnant before she got married. (What a story)

Anyway. The first week of next month is Kheng Wee, Sharon and Crystbel birthdays. Bel was not feeling well so she could not go to papar with us. So we had an Octo-baby hospital celebration today in Papar with all the babies. Huhu! Kk... We did not have the babies. Had a chance to wear a nearly complete ward attire, what you usually see the doctors wear when their going to do surgery in those doctors dramas. Head down to the foot. Somehow the footwear and the mask looks like disposable panties.

What to do?

Life without purpose or any drive is not a pleasant feeling. And also opens up a lot of opportunities for something to happen. Or at least the feeling is ain't nice. Sigh...

Blessing

Ever since I started to do the booklet, I have been getting to know more of Sabah in such a short time. It's amazing. The booklet this year is fantastic from the draft layout i say yesterday. But next years booklet will be so much more fasinating than the last and will improve as it goes on from here.

This coming thursday is a freshies dinner, a welcome for them to fun and exciting days in Sabah. (Thats how i view it this time). Its amazing how the tickets get sold. Last Sunday was announced about the event and somehow Christine made us asked for sponsors for the tickets. The money came in like selling ice lemon tea on a hot day! The money could cover for 232 tickets. AMAZING!

I did not know that we actually got such a big pool of resources but now i know, and there is still more to know. The generous heart of God's people sure encouraged me as well increased my faith. Especially an aunty who has already given 100 and gave another hundred under a condition that i really pray for the event. And i have been because i have been blessed by her contribution.

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Booklet 2010 Archive

Sadong Jaya, Near Maybank Main branch
A hawker area with local delicacies like nasi goreng, maggie mee goreng etc... It's good save the satay. So far i have only tried the stall on the far right. I was told that is the best.

Staff Food Corner, 1 Borneo
Cheap and good food. Tried the cendol. Nice at the beginning but gets a little plain when you reach the end. Nasi ayam/chicken rice i find it fair.

Apple Cafe, 1 Borneo
Reasonable priced food for a supermarket restaurant. Not too bad.

Bamboo Cafe, 1 Borneo
The prices are rather cheap. But once the food quality dropped and i shunned going there the whole of my 2nd semester 2008/2009 (2nd year).

1 Borneo Cafe, 1 Borneo
Good food. The menu have changed from the last time. The price is rather reasonable.

The Shack

I have been reading 'The Shack'. The back page synopsis:

Mackenzie Allen Phillips's youngest daughter, Missy, has been abducted during a family vacation and evidence that she may have been brutally murdered is found in an abandoned shack deep in the Oregon wilderness. Four years later, in the midst of his Great Sadness, Mack receives a suspicious note, apparently from God, inviting him back to that shack for a weekend.

Against his better judgment he arrives at the shack on a wintry afternoon and walks back into his darkest nightmare. What he finds there will change Mack's world forever.

The Shack, William P. Young

This is one book i recomend, tho i found out that i don't know many things i feel that many of what it writes it's truth.

I also come to realise one more thing. Many times we ask question. But our biggest problem is we don't expect an answer, or don't bother to find the answer at all. I guess everything is at our finger tips and when the answer does not come in an instant we don't bother. I'm going to find out the answer to my question, I'll try my best with Dad's help.